Family Tree

Well i have been on a mission to try to unlock the secerts and mysteries of my family tree. On the egg donor's side it's a confusing task the roots are so twisted and over lapping. Then no one wants to talk about things so many secerts, betrayal, lies, affairs, and more...
Now on my dad's side things are a lil hetic as well cause alot of things are dark and mysterious as far as life of my Great Grandmother Landry is concerned. I know she was a Goddard and migrated here from England, but she was tight lipped about England and her life there so it makes me wonder what she was running from and hiding. was she here legally?
So speaking of the family tree i called my grandmother to inquire about the middle names of my aunts and uncles... and was met with a firey resistance there but she did give them up, and point blank told me that was as far as she was going with it, then told me of my brother's remarks that the tree was dead limbs were missing etc. so i am takin that to mean he is not interested in making amends and rebuilding our siblinghood...
as i said to my friend i will wear a mask of indifference or even false bravo to cover my real one streaked with tears and the lines of my broken heart and spirit.