i know i should be delighted christmas is around the corner and this year i have more to be thankful for then last year but my heart is very heavy. I'm in one of those moods where my mind is drifting with the music and reflecting on thoughts of what this season is suppose to embrace.. love, family , unity.
I'm often asked what is the best advice to offer the next generation... well simple love with all your heart don't hold back, don't care what others think, look within yourself for acceptance not to others, say i love you at every chance you can, and don't wish your life away stay young and cherish it as long as you can.
I'd give anything to go back to the days of youth when a parent or a grandmother's kiss held magic that could ease the pain of any wound imaginable.
I put on quite a show that i'm confident, secure, and in control but truth be told i'm scared of a lot of things, i don't have all the answers , i stumble and fall, i'm far from perfect, i doubt myself sometimes actually alot of the time.
I think one of my biggest regretts right now is that i'm too stubborn to talk to my brother and tell him how much i miss and love him and remind him of how growing up he was my hero, i was his shadow lol drove him nuts now we pass by in a parking lot or the mall and we're strangers.. it hurts so bad.
my biggest wish right now is for someone to give me the answers to life like a walkthrough guide or a puse button so i can review and catch up.
